mr tambourine man~

刺猬

最后一抹的微笑
在转身之后
我闭上眼哭了
仅存的一点点骄傲
华丽的外表终于丢掉
很彷徨很孤单
是寂寞或悲惨
一个人该怎么办

像是刺猬般防范
伪装的勇敢
不轻易让你看穿
我以为可以很坦然
面对分开时不觉得伤感
然而将灯关上
一片无 声黑暗
心痛的大声呼喊

我想我没那么坚强
每个女孩其实一样
渴望着爱情的好
渴望被拥抱
却都害怕爱让人受伤

承认我没那么坚强
不过是一而再的逞强
小心将情绪收藏 比傻瓜还傻
刺猬的坚强全都是假象 哭吧
~~~~~
不要爱上我
是不是我们都太冲动
压抑不了寂寞
这样的关系到底算什么
我竟然会感动
相信你会为爱往前冲
而我没有把握
暧昧的关系到底算什么
好怕你爱上我
怕你爱上我 不要爱上我
我眼眶的泪 闪烁在美丽的黑夜
我给的不多 请你原谅我的脆弱
让你我 拥有自由

What am i good at?
I'm good at getting others worried over me..
For this life i do not treasure.
shame
remember the hard lesson learned
from a short lived enjoyment

I ALWAYS loved christmas~
I still do..
Never got bored listening to all the carols!!
But this year..
I'm kinda dreading it~
simply to say!
I'm going hiding!
No presents for you all!!!

A toast to Kooshi's soft opening at Mandaring Gallery (03-25)!

Hectic schedule coming ahead, work and school and exams!

Wish me best of health and sales~

Cheers~!

the case has closed~
so stop assuming.
and lastly,
thank you
thank you =)

Lego loves~ Go pledge!

Little thoughts and actions that made you feel appreciated,
that you'll never regret showering them with loves~
thank you Besties & Lao Pos

Life... Is full of unexpected choices.

Is full of surprises..
We never knew
But we are aware...
Intelligent, humorous, gentle, kind and charming
there's more to it
but i shan't go further
.
.
.
Rush the next moving train and head to an unknown land with whole new experiences.
Or wait for a jet that takes you anywhere you want.
You can't have it all
.
the walk continues
.
Anyways

Happy birthday to the lady that always makes my day
Cheers to Lego: "You are not alone~"

I need some brainwashing.

Its been a while since i laugh so hysterically and uncontrollably~
and i enjoyed it~
I suddenly realise yesterday was our last presentation together~
And i'm missing US already.. haha...
We're a small group, but warm. =)

~
Happy flight mummy, I miss you!
~

Hy! Heverybodys~ How to hyu do?
Hactuary, Hi don't like to bitch hor~
Hts just my self defense mechanism~ my halter hego...
Hi know, hts not a good hexcuse stiuu~
but neh minds, hwe happy can riao~

Presentations finally over!
Finally get to sleep well for a night.
Shall go full force again tomorrow!
Mum's flying to china tomorrow~

Interviewed a young girl 18ish, married with a 1 month old baby today.
First she came in looking really blur, answered my questions.. still blur, inexperience..couldn't speak English.
After she left, she text me.. here's our text correspondence...
N: "hey babe, nice knowing you today!"
Me: Nice knowing you too, I'll update you should you be selected.
N: I think i dun stand much chance to get in.
me: not to worry, if you're not selected i'll forward your resume to a friend from the agencies.
N: I really think i won't get in. But i realli need the job.
after a while...
N: I think ur vry sweet, and cute.. your face..envy...
after a few hours...
Me: Thanks, i'll inform you the updates again =)
N: I look ugly... haiz (she actually looks cute lar! like a little baby sister)
Me: Be confident girl, you're sweet and good looking.
N: Can we be friends? haha...

hm... faced with a situation like this.. when you've gotta maintain a professional front and yet you'll really wanna help her.. how should you reply? Without giving her any false hope that you'll be hiring her? I'm skeptical of her intentions.
I'm lost.. any advice?

On my way back home, I was approach with an aunty wearing PJs, holding two ten cents coins in her palms. I was listening to my mp3 therefore couldn't hear her clearly. I briefly heard her mentioned in chinese " ...twenty cents coins... make phone calls...". So i told her to wait while i started digging twenty cents for her. Only when I handed my twenty cents to her that she explained she wanted to borrow my phone and in exchange she'll pay me twenty cents. I hestitated and questioned her about why she didn't want to use a public pay phone instead, which was only a short distance away. She replied me with another question "whether i know if those phones accept coins or are card operated". Of course i didn't know.. and i pondered for a while..

I was trying to digest my thoughts while digging out my phone meanwhile. In a distance, another lady whose was probably watching us for some time called out to her and offered her phone free. She insisted the aunty to keep her coins. But of course, i smiled and walk off.

Sometimes i wondered.

We're nurtured in an environment constantly reminded to be wary of strangers. Often, we hear too much stories of con-men/women, too much pessimism. That we are too occupied with protectionist thoughts. We fail to discern the goodwill and innocence of people.

Of course i'm ashamed for my hesitation to bring out my phone.. becuase i was just holding on to it!.. before i dropped it bag into my bag to take out that twenty cents coin.

On second thoughts.. its just human nature aint it? haha!

My boss said to me today :" Jo, don't be disheartened when people bully you. Its a learning curve.." I thank god for her.. she's always there to pick up the mess i created...

I replied :" 我知道，所以就难过一下下，就一下下而已！！"

最近爱上这首歌。。。 听得见的梦想。。 分享给大家

星星安靜閃著光亮 哼唱天使般的樂章

山風溫暖起伏胸膛 撐起你沉默的盼望

摀住耳朵手貼在心上

閉上雙眼能看見遠方

從來沒有害怕 你和我都一樣

沒有到不了的地方

最溫暖的寶藏透過專注的眼光 聽見夢想

最真實的力量

藏在無聲的天堂 聽見希望

微笑就是愛的橋樑 過程中的傷都珍藏

或許路途比較漫長 看到你驕傲的抵達

摀住耳朵手舉向天上

用心接收歡呼的聲譽

汗水就是徽章 發出耀眼光芒

照亮你奔馳的地方

最溫暖的寶藏 透過專注的眼光 聽見夢想

最真實的力量 藏在無聲的天堂 聽見希望

Anyway!~ I'm so excited! Borrowing Weiming's D40 tml~ hee..

Photography is fun!!!

You think it is, it is not.

Perception is deceiving~

Photos by Daniel Ho Ho Ho Ho~

I'm gonna be needing morning calls for the few coming weeks..

yes you can guess it~!

Just a random thought~

This i said to myself~

I'll marry a man that buys me a mini cooper..

If I eventually buy one of my own, then i shall marry myself!! sob~

I'll date a guy that buys me a prosumer camera,

otherwise, its just me and my cammie~

This is shallow i know~

Not a post for deep thoughts anyway~

Went window shopping for camera just the other day~ Asked the uncle if he could recommend me some good semi-pro cameras and the neighboring customer turned around and said " You look like a professional man~!" I'm flattered, for a moment my heart just fluttered~ wo0o0oOo~

The sweetest gift my ex-boyfriend gave was to buy me a blue guitar when i least expected it. He sat me down at an open grass patch nicely laid with table cloth and my fav drink and then started his usual strut of strum and sing~

These are afterall fond memories to be kept~

.....

Did a mega retail therapy today!

Guess i have been supressing my self too much that i had a sudden surge or spenthrift!!

It's the most beneficial thing to be working in a retail line! You get to purchase on your own line of quality fabrics at super discounts! Live like an "atas"!

Still, nothing beats my Aldo 3 mins shoe shopping record!!~ ( I think my 3 month old shoe is spoiling) and I bought 2 pairs of heels today!

.....

Oh oh!! and !!

*tick tock tick tock~

I betta go back to assignmening~

Hope i'm not too late, but darn.. i should have watched it earlier. I'm so glad i watched this.

I guess you must be able to relate to understand and appreciate this movie.

and

I LOVE IT...

Its beautiful~

The pictures, the motion and the little little details of fast and slow to potray each emotions.

The part where the whole world seems to dance with you when you're happy, or whatever that you see is disgusting when your life tears apart.

Perfect soundtrack

Sometimes its not because you don't believe in love,

Its because you don't know what you are pursuing..

Someone who's so nonchalant about love, may just have not met the right one.

Well i'm not good with words..

perhaps this song could express it~

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one I'll always love

You could be the one who listens To my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can

But I'm busy mending broken

Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged

All my dreams and all my balance

She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can

But I'm busy mending broken

Pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can

But I'm busy mending brokenPieces of the life I had before

Before you...

This time, the movie displays the emotional turmoils from a total guys point of view. I like that! So don't you say tt chick flicks are meant for women losers!!

YES!!

I'm gonna search for the soundtracks now!! before my boiling passion dies off soon~ haha!

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Lena was so right when she described how i always like perfect and beautiful pictures that are always so colourful, full of fantasy, or artistic and nostalgic.

She described me as someone who'll take a picture of a sea.. and then photoshopped it with clouds of different shapes and sizes, clear blue sky, and add little details of corals into the sea. And when i got so tired trying to add in the details cos it doesn't look right. I'll just save it and give up! haha.

True true..

When we realize situations have shown a different light,
We may lose our confidence, feel demoralized.
We all do.
Thats when we trust that we'll find the courage to work even harder,
Make tomorrow a better day,
If tomorrow isn't,
the day after will be.

Perhaps, when we're alone in our room,
we can look around our surroundings.
Our room tells a story~

The ceiling said: Aim high.

Fan said: Be cool.

Clock said: Every minute is precious.

Mirror said: Reflect before you act.

Window said: See the world and open up.

Door said: opportunities are out there.

Calender said:Ur getting older(wiser maybe)

What else can you think of?

Bed said: Join me~ to a world of dreams.
Luring~

*Teens/tweens nowadays are far more knowledgeable than us.
They reminded me of how much I've missed out during my younger days though~

After watching the last episode of PS: I'm sorry - featuring Diana Ser.
I was embraced with the thought of wanting to write to them again.
How badly i wanted to tell them I'm sorry, for not contacting them, for not having the time and the financial ability to fly over, to see how they have been living. Sounds like a drama already, I don't have the courage~ haha

Mostly importantly as well, to mum and dad, I'm sorry for the nastiest things I said when I was little.

Now a little moment of nostalgia~


My playmates~
I started playing Rubik's at the age of 3.5!! But I'll never master it! lol!

My exhausting day ended with a warm, looong shower~

*(But these kids will never know how they'll look like in film photographs~ tsk tsk)
Sweet dreams for now ..

Emotions

I'm an emotional optimist.

Like the moon, everyday's a different mood~

Sometimes I laugh at the essentric and silliest things i've done.

Sometimes I hate myself for my dumbest stunts

Sometimes I feel beautiful and confident

Sometimes I feel ugly and disgusted

Sometimes I feel like a total slut

Sometimes I just love to bitch~

Sometimes I'm so ignorant and blurr, i didn't know what i'm doing~

Sometimes I just wish the whole world had ignored me (the opposite)

Sometimes I feel terrifly lonely and empty and I couldn't stop eating...

Sometimes I would jump around in Joy, Hysterical!, laughing at all the slightest joke~

This is me, I love how my life is filled with surprises.

Today,

I feel , Contented.

In addition,

Yesterday I had a huge bowl of yoghurt + popcorn + coffee bean

Bad mix...

Therefore,

Today, I feel.. HUNGRY~ (you could guessed what happened~)

On a side note,

I wonder if unmarried women tend to get more insecure as they age. I merely sat in his car.

And oh you aFFing knew your boyfren is a jerk anyway. Why that hostility babe?

PS: Dear Jo, If there's one of your nostalgia moments when you decided to read this again 10 years later, remember NEVER to become one as such mentioned~

kuku-ness

Buses should have their number board mounted INSIDE their bus as well to ensure blurr cock-eyes kuku like me don't board the wrong bus!!

Last night, My first attempt to take bus 66 home ended up in BISHAN interchange with bus 56.... -.-

Anyways, mummy cooked my favourite claypot chicken rice specially for me today!~ Goddess mama, please tell mummy i love her k?!!! haha...

Coco, have you seen my Coco?~

Gabrielle "Coco" Chanel is a really inspiring figure.

Someone who's not afraid to be different,

Speaks for herself,

Relies on herself.

Created a revolution.

.

.

.

side track abit~ One of the quotes she mentioned,

"the best thing about falling in love is sex, too bad we need a man to do that!" haha..

The results of my last assignment are out,
and
i guess i'm losing hope in passing...
oh wells,
Why are matters of the brain so difficult to understand!!?

Its been a draining week for me...
I'm pinning hopes that moving back to river valley might turn out for the better
Goodbye Bali Lane~

How I envy the full-time students~

On a brighter note,
I've managed to clear the clutters in my room and rearranged the layout
So!
hopefully this new "Feng Shui" might bring me better luck!
and
clear that "clutter" in my brain too~

When people are desperate, they believe everything! duh!

Tanya's new song. She wrote this song while she was enjoying her coffee in Paris and she chance upon this beautiful scene of a guy who hug and carried his girlfriend in circles.

The song mentioned:

地球上住著很多人，有些人我們認識，有些人我們不認識，『有幾個共同朋友』 『要不要加為好友』熟悉了，親密了，然後，等到愛情終結了，雙方又將回到..陌生的初始狀態。如果就像六 度分隔理論說的，「我與世界上任何一個陌生人的中間距離不會超過六個人!」真的是這樣嗎?穿梭在人群中的你 我 他，沒有人能預知，我們明天 還會遇見 誰。

No one knows what the future hold. Don't be afraid to look forward, because the next one will be better. =)

蔡健雅 - 谁

现在的我 还是对爱充满疑惑
没对或错 还不想给什么承诺
保持沉默独自走过 空虚和寂寞它们陪伴着我
装作洒脱其实很懦弱
有太多的借口终究没有结果

谁让我感觉他最了解我
眼神交错话都不用说
就抱紧我让我感受他多爱我
谁让我感觉不需要再躲
过去心痛从此被淹没
就抱紧我让我感受
让我感受他多爱我
让我相信他是爱～爱我的

未来的我 一个人过也算不错
冰冷的手 插入口袋也算暖和
日出日落都差不多 若有谁陪我那一定更好过
天空为我一直闪烁着
用太多的借口我在拒绝什么
谁让我感觉他最了解我
眼神交错话都不用说
就抱紧我让我感受他多爱我

谁让我感觉不需要再躲
过去心痛从此被淹没
就抱紧我让我感受
让我感受他多爱我
让我相信他是爱～爱我的
谁让我感觉他最了解我
眼神交错话都不用说
就抱紧我让我感受他多爱我

谁让我感觉不需要再躲
过去心痛从此被淹没
就抱紧我让我感受
让我感受他多爱我
让我相信他是爱～爱我的
让我相信他是爱
让我相信他是爱～爱我的

未来的我 一个人过也算不错
冰冷的手 插入口袋也算暖和
日出日落都差不多 若有谁陪我那一定更好过
天空为我一直闪烁着
用太多的借口我在拒绝什么Q

Last paper today, and very high possibility i might fail this module yet again.. sob..

cognitively jammed

Poor darling lost her laptop.

I'll curse that that bloody fucker who took her laptop away gets tickled by playful friends who'll be joining us for a month, tripped by 'em kids, fall and break his front tooth!

and start feeling guilty and paranoid for his sins~

Toothless ah pek!

haha! Omph~

Clumsy Jojo had a fall

On a usual routine, i'll switch on and off the light box outside my shop everyday.
The switch is quite high, so to do that, i'll have to borrow my neighbour's chair.
It doesn't have much support, just planes of panels. Those that you see in smoking areas outside fastfood.
So, i had to rush for class last friday afterwork.
As usual i climbed up the chair.

Something which i seemed to have instinctively sensed but casually ignored happened!
The chair gave way,
the panel broke and my leg went right through in!
It was really loud so the diners were perpetually staring at me.. booboo
That isn't the most embarrassing part!
My legs got stucked and i only realized that when i tried to move. Ugh~
So therefore i proudly announced myself too heavy with fat legs!
Of course i was only joking~
I was wearing a skirt, which i wasn't even worried to think whether i "zao kenged" at that point of time!The swell has subsided, but i guess i can't wear shorts or skirts for quite some time now.
Phobic of climbing chairs.

Clumsy jojo tried to climb tall, clumsy jojo had a great fall

Heaven's sneeze

For the past few days, i've been watching the weather forecast, looking forward to an icon with a grey cloud and little blue dots just below that cloud.
Well, it was suppose to rain but i don't seem to feel/see/sense any signs of leak from the sky.

I simply just love the rain.
They've always have this special ability, to wash away stains of unhappiness, or bring subtle messages of joy. Itzamazing!

I could dance in the rain, feel the droplets with the help of gravity massages. That way i might fall sick!
I can adopt the use of a transparent umbrella, follow the rhythm of beats on my umbrella, tataa tatataa~ I'll look up and admire these droplets falling down straight to my face~

I can sit by the window sill, watch these beautiful eyelets trickle down my window each taking different paths, different speed, some meeting up with other droplets to form even bigger ones.

I could also sit in my car, watch the wiper swipe them all to the side and stream down just like little rivers!

At night, the sky is red, sometimes purple in its most romantic way
When my windows are closed, the wind sings!
In the day, vibrant rainbow(s) welcome the sun after a pour, bringing the best smiles of hope.
Isn't nature beautiful?
I hope it rains soon~

Weee~

I'm gonna watch 4.48 psychosis tml~

hahaha~

~

I'm so fickle minded

I'm always contradicting myself

One moment i made up my mind

another, i behaved against my decision

I've no self discipline, no self control

Mum's scheduled flight to Surubaya this morning got delayed, twice

and she's still stuck in the airport

I only knew an hour ago

I'm such an unfilial daughter

I wanna watch 4.48 psychosis,

its closing soon and i've no one to watch with!
and no time!

Just a nobody, to nobody

Think i'm turning psycho

How~!??

Its getting disturbing looking at an empty tagboard

so i took it out!

I'm not happy

I'M NOT HARPPEEEEE

EEEAAARRRH~

fine.

I shall dwell in my own fantasy of thoughts.

Good night world~

*Yawns*

keep fit!

Found a new spot to study~

Signed up with true fitness~

Yoga here i come!!

Keep fit all the way!

YEAH!

Desperate people with desperate measures..

Received a call this afternoon by some strange Malay man who claimed to have found a cheque that my colleague had dropped for me at Takashimaya.
I was taken aback at first, then i remembered... My pay cheque!!! Must have dropped out of the DBS QCD box!
Thats where he got my contact details.

Well, he went on to say that he's gotten hold of my cheque from the "Rubbish Bin" (Do our QCDb box look like rubbish bin to you?) and will be waiting for me at Takashimaya. He further hinted that he wanted something out of it :" You see ah, you help me, i help you la~, I got a family to take care also.. I need money.."

Thats when i started to raise my voice at this bloody fool, questioning him the details on the cheque. Yet all he could read were the numbers - "I malay la.. i don't know how to read.. got this number XXXXXX and this number XXX-XXX-XXX... you see la, what do you want to do?"

In a very "nice" tone, i continued :" What?! What you mean you don't know how to read?! you don't bluff ah!?, you give me your name! and your handphone number! I call you back.."

Silly enough, he gave me his number and name with another malay lady in the background instigating him (His accomplice!!).

I quickly called my colleague to cancel the cheque and re-issue me with a new one. (Stopping a cheque requires freaking $30/-!!!)

5 minutes later ...

Phone rings :" How mam, what you want to do?" Still trying to sound polite to me..
I told him he can fucking throw away the cheque or do whatever he wants 'cos its crossed and he ain't gonna do nothing 'cos I've cancelled the cheque.
"Then you don't want the cheque already ah?"
"Yes do whatever you want, I've cancelled the cheque"
"Then you tell me earlier la, you wasting my time la!!!!" and HE HUNG UP MY CALL!...
WTF?

Now, He has my name, my account no, company info and my hp number.. I made a report...
Imagine if its some poor old un-educated lady's cheque that he picked up.. i can't imagine what would have happened...

Bloody immigrants (I assumed), used our resources, breathe our air, eat our food, get our pay, and create crimes in our land!!!

To die or to live?

To make money, we lose our health
and then to restore our health, we lose our money..
We lived as if we're never gonna die..
and then we die as if we've never lived...

How true is that?

keep on moving, keep climbing, keep the faith

Lyrics:
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an up-hill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

the guitarist is cute~

LURVEEE HER~
and sorry for spamming, the lyrics are just so... ughhh

oh you boring flower~

I've a whole list of uncountable things i wanna accomplish in life!
and i don't know when will that day ever come!
looking at how i've lived and grew up~
ah... it just seems further and further.

- bungy jumping
- sky diving
- scuba diving
- parachuting
- whatever sea sports you can think of
- go yatching
- learn cycling (greatest regrets)
- learn salsa
- learn yoga
- learn photography
- learn singing
- master my uke ( i gave up on guitar and keyboard)
- speak korean, japanese, cantonese, bahasa indonesia and french
- acting (way pass that now, never accomplished)
- set up my own business
- complete my masters (i've yet to complete my degree)
- drive my own mini cabrio
- buy a husky or a king charles spaniel
- travel to at least 50 countries
- live in my own home with a wonderful sea view and beautiful balcony just below the sky
- be a multi-millionaire and a tai tai of my own!
- spend like i don't bother while i'm young!
- eat like i don't have to look at the price!~

gosh!
am i too greedy?
Now i feel terribly poor and boring and unaccomplished...
What have i been working for?
i could self-claim that i've got looks that are above average, and a slightly smarter brain and a slightly higher EQ. But thats all that i've got!
And to think that age is catching up! I'm looking more mature than i should.. that sucks

Now, I've a few options.
1) find a retired and rich old man (probably an ex ceo of something), marry him and wait for him to die.
2) find an established and accomplished rich man, marry him and then find an excuse to divorce him..
3) stop dreaming, save up and live like any poor dude.

How does that sound? Boohoo

feeling all cheery and sexy this summer~?

I wish~
I plan to~
I will~
I need~
I want to~
I hope for~
I look forward to~

This...

Closing June

Howdy!~

So my mum complained i used up my entire week just so for birthday celebrations~ Thats b'cos i've friends of similar birthdates!

Sentosa with my babes~

Zirca~

Happy Birthday Sherine, Happy engagement Katherine~

Big delights from thoughtful gifts~

I Love You Jocelyn!

Cheese cake and garage night once again~
Cool breeze and picnic~

When you're happy, you'll meet more happy people~

When you're happy, you'll attract more things that make you happy~ amuses you~

The law of attraction draws what you are focused on to you.

Never be afraid to trust your emotions and gut feelings, they are the aspects that lead you to making the right decisions. So don't blame yourself from being emotional, instead, be thankful that you've a better set of decision making tool~

Love yourself~

new love~

ooOoOoooh~